I lost it already today.

It's à same really. I was so excited to get out of class so I walked to my friend's house that was 2 minutes away. And I watched à movie and slept too for two hours and didn't complete à single thing today! How shameful! I didnt even pay attention in class. I think that's the worst part. Then my friend forced me to sit up straight, close my eyes, and breathe. I haven't meditated in quite some time so it was pretty nice. Tons of thoughts ran through my head as I meditated. I was wondering how come i feel like i have absolutely nothing to do when in fact I have so much to do! and I realised it's because I'm losing my courage and becoming scared again. I need to make my contacts foetus Carrotmob tonight!!